My weekend had been a whirlwind of activities and I could barely catch up with it!
Friday felt like the worst day of my life and I broke down. It was really ironic because the things that happened would have otherwise been great but given the circumstances that day, too many good things in one day is a sure formula for disaster! I ain't gonna relate all the things that happened to me because you will just think I'm being whiny. Even I myself feel it was no big deal, really, it confuses me even as to how things turned out so bad.
I only had a bad day and I was whining like hell, but it turned out that Shyan had a whole bad week at work, no, make that ever since he started working in that large company. Well, big company, big politics, all backstabbers. But he still managed to put on a big smile for me, therefore I thought I should just stop drama-queening.
Luv ya lots, lao gong!
Then on Saturday, I went for the Qatar Airways interview which started at 9am at Crowne Plaza Hotel, KL. I already knew roughly what to expect from what I read on cabincrew.com and Penny's advices. However, it was still a bit unnerving to arrive and see all these really good-looking men and women in the hall, all waiting to enter the ballroom which may just be the start of their high-flying dreams. I could tell many of them are not first-timers to these interviews. Geez, most of them look like cabin crews but even they haven't got in after multiple attempts, what chance do I have against that? But I thought of Jacqueline and thought, "Since she could do it, I probably could too." Anyway, I didn't think I would get selected this time round.
The ballroom door opened and all of us filed into the room eagerly. I made acquaintance with the girl next to me named Amy. She's from JB too and she came all the way from JB to KL for the weekend because she didn't know there was another interview on the same day in Singapore. Oh, I loved her rosy pink complexion! She's actually 28 this year but she sure doesn't look it. Her resemblance to one of my college lecturers, Ms. Joanne Teh, was uncanny. They could have passed for sisters, if not twins! Maybe she was selected, I dunno, since we didn't exchange any contacts. But she looked good enough to be a CC.
I even met Si Qi, who was my course mate in college. She was wearing a business suit as well, suited her. She had always given me the impression of being demure and lady-like. She spotted me first - I was sitting right in front of her! And we exchanged phone numbers. Currently, she's working in Subang as a secretary. Well, I guess Graphic Design doesn't really work in Malaysia. Most of my course mates back in college had given up on this field to embrace better opportunities. Yours truly is gonna be one of them soon, in case you're wondering. But I need to figure out what I can do next, if I really can't get myself into a good airline, then I'd have to think of another way out.
And so the open day continued and it was time to submit our resumes and photos. There were 2 interviewers collecting them, unfortunately, my group had got an austere-looking one so it was quite unnerving. After submitting my stuff, I went home at about 12.20pm. Hmmm, still had a lot of time left before Che Wei came to fetch us for the Port Dickson trip. I went home and had a nap but I woke up after only an hour or so, anxious for the Qatar call. Every time someone calls me, I wanted to hang up because I thought I would miss their call.
As expected, no call from Qatar for me. So I thought, what the heck, I didn't have to worry about rushing back from PD tomorrow! Another way to console myself, I guess. But what more can I do, right? Might as well have fun with my friends first! I sms Si Qi, seemed like she didn't get through too. See, what the interviewers are looking for is totally beyond me! I thought she might get through!
Che Wei came to fetch me, Cheryl and Evelyn at 5.30pm. We met up with Wai Kiat and the others at a petrol station near the Sungai Besi toll and we were on our way to have FUN!
We were having the BBQ at Corus. Weng Soon, his GF and Wan Sek were already there setting up all the necessities. Gotta give credit to Weng Soon this time because he had everything ready for us.
Party started!!!
I had lotsa fun fooling around with them. So lucky to have them as my group mates in college! Unlike other tutorial groups, ours was the most united one. Almost all of us do everything together, whereas other groups move around in cliques. Needless to say, we were the envy of other groups because we always seemed to have so much fun, although other groups would be least likely to admit it. We are still the envy of my other friends because our group still keeps in contact after TWO whole years of graduating! In fact, we are having another yumcha session this Saturday.
After we finished makan-makan, we packed up and left for Glory, where we would be spending the night at. The condition of the 2-bedroom apartment was excellent! It even had a VCD player! All thanks to Ai Leen, who helped arrange for our accomodation. She's a PD local and the apartment belongs to her friend's friend so she got the house at only RM140 per night!
It was a day after Cheryl's birthday so Weng Soon bought a cake for her. Ping Yit even came all the way from KL to give her a surprise. PY and Co. only stayed for a while then made their way to Corus to get a room for the night. After eating the cake, me, Cheryl, Jaan Hoong, Wan Hoon and Willeon went for a seaside walk. We really shouldn't have left the others at home.
Here's why.
The guys were sprawled across the living room floor when we returned. They were zzz-ing away like pigs, I tell you! So much for the fun-filled PD weekend they promised! We had no choice, so me and Wan Hoon went to sleep. Wan Hoon was complaining about how boring the trip was compared to our last Xmas trip, which she missed. Well, she spotted the picture of Boon Fei morphing into a transvestite and it was damn funny!
And now, the guys were sleeping like dead logs, imagine her dismay! I tried waking them up, not really hard, I admit. I pulled at Sze Foong's blanket, jumped a bit on the cushions Wai Kiat was sleeping on, made some noise in front of the other guys' room, but to no avail. So I gave up and went to sleep. Fucking freezing, I tell you!
First night in PD went just like that.
Second day, we checked out and went to the beach. Geez, this is getting long winded! I might as well make it short.
Jaan Hoong surprised (and disgusted) us in his swimming trunks! Thank God he didn't wear the brief type! I didn't get into the water because I was menstruating and was worried that there wouldn't be anywhere to shower. But I was destined to get wet, I guess, since I went on the speed boat and was splashed by a wave as I was getting down.
Okay, I'm so lazy to write now. Just wanna say that I really enjoyed myself, although not as much as last Xmas. Hope next time we can go to Pulau Perhentian together, guys!
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
Thursday, July 20, 2006
Is this for real?!?
Read Penny's blog yesterday. I'm really worried for her. She sounded like she was gonna commit suicide! I certainly hope her head would clear a little before she attempts anything silly. But there's nothing I can do - I have no other ways to contact her except via emails, her blog and my blog. I've never even met her. But she has helped me a great deal in understanding the whole airline interview process.
She's only 21 years old this year. By God's grace, please don't let anything bad happen to her. She's so very kind but just too pessimistic about the situation around her. Can't blame her, though. She was this close to becoming an air stewardess, her lifelong dream, and suddenly had everything taken from her with just a medical report.
To make matter worse, she had issues with her family, namely her sister and her relationship with her boyfriend is slowly disintegrating.
However, being the ever-hopeful person that I am, I still believe there has got to be some way around it for Penny. After all, problems and pressure come from our own mind.
Yeah I know some of you out there would probably say I'm not in her shoes so how can I say that. But hurting yourself is NOT the way to end things. You'll only make yourself even more miserable. And hurting yourself will also hurt the people who care for you. Unless you tell me you're a self-fanatic freak who doesn't gives a shit to what happens to the people who care for you, then please be my guest and do whatever you want with your miserable life. No offence here to anyone.
I just don't wanna see a nice person throwing away her life that way is all.
By the way, I've posted a coupla comments and saw others commenting as well but Penny still hasn't replied and there is no new entry coming from her. I really hope she's fine.
She's only 21 years old this year. By God's grace, please don't let anything bad happen to her. She's so very kind but just too pessimistic about the situation around her. Can't blame her, though. She was this close to becoming an air stewardess, her lifelong dream, and suddenly had everything taken from her with just a medical report.
To make matter worse, she had issues with her family, namely her sister and her relationship with her boyfriend is slowly disintegrating.
However, being the ever-hopeful person that I am, I still believe there has got to be some way around it for Penny. After all, problems and pressure come from our own mind.
Yeah I know some of you out there would probably say I'm not in her shoes so how can I say that. But hurting yourself is NOT the way to end things. You'll only make yourself even more miserable. And hurting yourself will also hurt the people who care for you. Unless you tell me you're a self-fanatic freak who doesn't gives a shit to what happens to the people who care for you, then please be my guest and do whatever you want with your miserable life. No offence here to anyone.
I just don't wanna see a nice person throwing away her life that way is all.
By the way, I've posted a coupla comments and saw others commenting as well but Penny still hasn't replied and there is no new entry coming from her. I really hope she's fine.
What's in a name
Was talking to my secondary classmate, Hui Yee, and we talked about my nicknames during that time. Whoa, I get called all sorts of names! But not in a cruel way, it was all because of my real name, actually. People who know me should know my full name. Now link it with these nicks;
OUCH - I hate this. Everytime someone is hurt, I'd think they were calling me.
TAUGE - Means BEAN SPROUT in Malay
GIGI - N. It's not the common English name, it means TEETH in Malay.
OGI
Then after I got my English name;
O DA LI
TALI
TALIBAN
TEDDY BEAR
Seems like no matter what I'm called, nicknames always keep close to me, huh?
I was even called "fei mao tui" (mandarin), which is the name of a flying missile when I was in primary school. They claimed it was because I ran really fast back then.
I'm really bored so that's it for now then.
OUCH - I hate this. Everytime someone is hurt, I'd think they were calling me.
TAUGE - Means BEAN SPROUT in Malay
GIGI - N. It's not the common English name, it means TEETH in Malay.
OGI
Then after I got my English name;
O DA LI
TALI
TALIBAN
TEDDY BEAR
Seems like no matter what I'm called, nicknames always keep close to me, huh?
I was even called "fei mao tui" (mandarin), which is the name of a flying missile when I was in primary school. They claimed it was because I ran really fast back then.
I'm really bored so that's it for now then.
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
Hmmm...
I'm so rajin today. Last night, I made a couple of egg and chilli tuna sandwiches and kept them in the fridge. This morning, I have one of the healthiest and most fulfilling breakfasts in the world! Believe me, I couldn't finish my mee hoon soup at lunch because I was still too full. But then again, I had breakfast at around 10.30am in the office, might as well call it brunch.
A new guy came to work today at our office, since Eric left, like, 2 months ago. He's very skinny, has a clear complexion, KLite. Lives in Jln Ipoh. Hey, stop, I'm not trying to dupe you into thinking he's good looking, coz he's not.
I'm not sure whether I like this new co-worker of mine. But I have a feeling he won't stay long. Let's wait and see if my sixth sense is right.
Well, during lunch today, me, Kenny, Nazha and the new guy, named Foong, went to 21 Carrots. Foong said he's going to buy something. So off he went and came back 15 minutes later with a white plastic bag. Nazha asked him what he'd bought. He replied that he went to buy some fruits. And he didn't order any food, he said fruits are enough, since he'd eaten in the morning already.
Moreover, food here are really expensive, I tell ya! From my conversation with him, I have the vague feeling that he was realizing this company wasn't really what he wants. After chatting for a while, Foong got up again and said he was gonna buy something else. It was 10 minutes to two. So the rest of us continued chatting until 2 o'clock but Foong still wasn't back. Then we thought we had better return to the office first. I picked up the white plastic bag.
"Apa kat dalam tu?" Nazha asked.
"Tak tahu la," I replied while taking a look into the bag.
A half-eaten green mango (the extremely sour kind, I don't know what you call it in English), a bent-up polystyrene tray and a small pack of plum powder.
"Sampah ke?" Nazha asked again.
"Ya lah," I answered, a bit disgusted.
Well, maybe I was just being a busybody. But why the hell did he bring a bag of rubbish back there just to put it on the table? Weird.
After paying for our meals at the counter, we still didn't see him anywhere. On the way back, I was thinking quietly to myself, could he possibly have gone back to the office, packed his bag and left already, finally deciding this isn't for him after all?
We pushed open the office door and Mala was looking at us weird.
"Mala, we had lost the new guy!" Nazha told her.
"Right you are! He's inside now. How did you lose him?" Mala said.
We all looked at each other. Nazha and Kenny proceeded to the studio but I stayed behind and related the whole incident to Mala.
"So, you see, we didn't lose him. He lost himself!" I explained.
"Hmmm...maybe we should give him more time to blend in with us," Mala advised in a motherly manner, trying to give him the benefit of the doubt.
Sounds okay with me. I haven't discovered anything else wrong with him so far, aside from his strange gesture during lunch. I certainly hope he isn't as weird as I thought him to be.
A new guy came to work today at our office, since Eric left, like, 2 months ago. He's very skinny, has a clear complexion, KLite. Lives in Jln Ipoh. Hey, stop, I'm not trying to dupe you into thinking he's good looking, coz he's not.
I'm not sure whether I like this new co-worker of mine. But I have a feeling he won't stay long. Let's wait and see if my sixth sense is right.
Well, during lunch today, me, Kenny, Nazha and the new guy, named Foong, went to 21 Carrots. Foong said he's going to buy something. So off he went and came back 15 minutes later with a white plastic bag. Nazha asked him what he'd bought. He replied that he went to buy some fruits. And he didn't order any food, he said fruits are enough, since he'd eaten in the morning already.
Moreover, food here are really expensive, I tell ya! From my conversation with him, I have the vague feeling that he was realizing this company wasn't really what he wants. After chatting for a while, Foong got up again and said he was gonna buy something else. It was 10 minutes to two. So the rest of us continued chatting until 2 o'clock but Foong still wasn't back. Then we thought we had better return to the office first. I picked up the white plastic bag.
"Apa kat dalam tu?" Nazha asked.
"Tak tahu la," I replied while taking a look into the bag.
A half-eaten green mango (the extremely sour kind, I don't know what you call it in English), a bent-up polystyrene tray and a small pack of plum powder.
"Sampah ke?" Nazha asked again.
"Ya lah," I answered, a bit disgusted.
Well, maybe I was just being a busybody. But why the hell did he bring a bag of rubbish back there just to put it on the table? Weird.
After paying for our meals at the counter, we still didn't see him anywhere. On the way back, I was thinking quietly to myself, could he possibly have gone back to the office, packed his bag and left already, finally deciding this isn't for him after all?
We pushed open the office door and Mala was looking at us weird.
"Mala, we had lost the new guy!" Nazha told her.
"Right you are! He's inside now. How did you lose him?" Mala said.
We all looked at each other. Nazha and Kenny proceeded to the studio but I stayed behind and related the whole incident to Mala.
"So, you see, we didn't lose him. He lost himself!" I explained.
"Hmmm...maybe we should give him more time to blend in with us," Mala advised in a motherly manner, trying to give him the benefit of the doubt.
Sounds okay with me. I haven't discovered anything else wrong with him so far, aside from his strange gesture during lunch. I certainly hope he isn't as weird as I thought him to be.
Monday, July 17, 2006
Face off
One thing that really worries me about the interview with SIA and any other airlines is my skin. It's not really bad but it does have blemishes here and there. And from all the air stewardess pics I've seen, all of them have clear complexions. What's more, I also heard that they do check you on your complexion in these interviews! *Sigh*
Some of them even go to the extent of checking if you have body odour! Namely in the armpit area! How? I don't think I need to elaborate on that! I believe there are not many ways in determining that right? Where smell is concern, there's only you and your nose, put it up against the armpit and smell...and remember, it's the interviewers' noses up your armpits!
Some of them even go to the extent of checking if you have body odour! Namely in the armpit area! How? I don't think I need to elaborate on that! I believe there are not many ways in determining that right? Where smell is concern, there's only you and your nose, put it up against the armpit and smell...and remember, it's the interviewers' noses up your armpits!
Smell tests in a perfume lab
Geez, being an air stewardess does need to be almost perfect.
I've taken a head and shoulders as well as a full length shot at Cheryl's house on Friday night. It was late, I tell you. I went to her house at around 11pm and we wrapped up at 1am. Well, we had to make my face up and decide what to wear. So I think that was pretty fast.
And the best thing about that was we actually had fun! Although we were both really tired but we were mucking around and taking funny shots as well. Then on Saturday and Sunday, I touched up the selected pix so that it looks like we had it taken in a studio. Haha, knowing how to use Photoshop really comes in handy sometimes! But my touch up skills are not that good so the background colour probably looks a bit fake, though. Cheryl is better in it cos she worked in a company that specializes in photo retouching last time. Shoulda asked her to do it but I don't wanna trouble her anymore.
Hey, Cheryl, thank you for helping me in this!
So now I only need ta upload the pictures to complete my application to Qatar and Emirates. But I guess I would have to let go of Qatar this time cos their Open Day is on 22/7 and I'm going to Port Dickson with my friends! I would really love to attend the interview but what to do, I've already made the plans with my friends since last month. No sense in "putting aeroplanes" now right? Man, I'm not a pilot! So I gotta let it go...*sob sob*
Friends are more important! That's right, keep tellin' meself that and be content! What's more, this trip is also in conjunction of celebrating Cheryl's birthday.
Back to my face...I'm having a beauty routine going on now but my face never seems to be completely clear of blemishes. Geez, help me God! Although I'm an atheist, but I do believe in a higher being when I absolutely need to, haha!
What the heck! I'll just go out and try it out first, whatever happens, happens! And if they don't happen, I'll make them happen!
Yiioshe! Ganbalimasu!
Friday, July 14, 2006
The Monotony of Life...*YAWN*
While browsing randomly through other blogs, a revelation suddenly dawned on me like, "Eh?!".
It reminded me of how different I am now from when I was in secondary school. Back then, I had an opinion on everything (not that I don't now). I would let everyone know about my opinions just to set myself apart from the rest. Difference is, I realize in recent years, I have taken to the back seat. I still have a lot of things to say but sometimes I choose not to say it or I'm simply too lazy to do so. Well, sometimes it's hard to relate and explain to others what I feel, especially now that I've lost my flair with words. Haha.
If blogs were invented during my seconday school days, I bet you anything I would be the first one to really go in on it. But then again, I didn't have Internet access, not that I have now. Only places I get it are my office and cyber cafes.
Okay, back to the topic. Now I'm only left with what little strength I have to browse through other people's blogs. These days, I just don't care about anything anymore. I mean, every day is just the same old working day in the no-day-or-night office, how am I suppose to have anything to comment about that. Generally, my life has become humdrum as opposed to the adventure-packed days I had in school. *Yawn*
That's why I would really love to become an air stewardess. It would be an experience to treasure for life, not to mention the more than promising salary that comes with it. And most importantly, I don't wanna go through life in the manner that I do now. Every day is the same and the monotony makes you unable to differentiate one day from the next!
Nowadays, I don't even remember what I had eaten or wore the day before! I used to have pretty good memory but now it's gone. I guess my smart little brain has interpreted that since every day is the same, there is nothing worthy to be remembered so it simply discards whatever that isn't needed, huh?
It reminded me of how different I am now from when I was in secondary school. Back then, I had an opinion on everything (not that I don't now). I would let everyone know about my opinions just to set myself apart from the rest. Difference is, I realize in recent years, I have taken to the back seat. I still have a lot of things to say but sometimes I choose not to say it or I'm simply too lazy to do so. Well, sometimes it's hard to relate and explain to others what I feel, especially now that I've lost my flair with words. Haha.
If blogs were invented during my seconday school days, I bet you anything I would be the first one to really go in on it. But then again, I didn't have Internet access, not that I have now. Only places I get it are my office and cyber cafes.
Okay, back to the topic. Now I'm only left with what little strength I have to browse through other people's blogs. These days, I just don't care about anything anymore. I mean, every day is just the same old working day in the no-day-or-night office, how am I suppose to have anything to comment about that. Generally, my life has become humdrum as opposed to the adventure-packed days I had in school. *Yawn*
That's why I would really love to become an air stewardess. It would be an experience to treasure for life, not to mention the more than promising salary that comes with it. And most importantly, I don't wanna go through life in the manner that I do now. Every day is the same and the monotony makes you unable to differentiate one day from the next!
Nowadays, I don't even remember what I had eaten or wore the day before! I used to have pretty good memory but now it's gone. I guess my smart little brain has interpreted that since every day is the same, there is nothing worthy to be remembered so it simply discards whatever that isn't needed, huh?
Thursday, July 06, 2006
Desperation...
Penny is a girl who answered my question related to being an SIA cabin crew on cc.com. It seems she got through the final stage of the interview and is ready to start realizing her dream any time now. It wasn't without effort, however. She had tried many times in the past before she can get to where she is now. Therefore, she really does deserve this and I'm happy for her (although we barely know each other).
Meanwhile, I'm feeling down and insecure because I've just found out that she probably applied to the same SIA ad as me. Did I mention anywhere in this blog that I applied for the position end of May this year? Well, it seems that my application didn't even get through the online screening process. Sigh! There's probably something wrong with my resume. Or my experiences aren't what they're looking for.
I received an email from them asking me to complete an online assessment. But every time I click on it, it just says I've already done it. Is this where the problem is? I honestly do not know.
According to Penny, SIA don't conduct open interviews. If that's the case, I don't think I'll ever be able to become an air stewardess with SIA. Hrmph! However, I frequently see SIA posting interview announcements on their website. If all interviews are by invitations only via email, they wouldn't have a reason to do that, right? I just hope there are other ways.
Hell, they haven't even seen me in person, I just want to be given an equal chance as everyone else. If I can't make it, then so be it. But I haven't even had a chance to know if I can make it or not! Guess I can only pray and pray that they will conduct an open interview in Malaysia soon. Hopefully in KL.
On 1 & 2 July, SIA had actually conducted an open interview in Singapore. I didn't go since it was too sudden. And it's damn hard to get holidays from my boss. Therefore, I'm stuck here in KL thinking up possibilities of what would happen if I had gone.
My biggest regret about this is that I didn't do it earlier. I should have done it last year when I was in between jobs. I was such a coward then. And the year before that. And well, I guess I didn't really know of a channel to get into it.
SIA used to advertise openly in The Star for their cabin crew vacancies. It was easier but I haven't had the courage to apply then. I didn't think I was good enough. But now it feels like they are doing it in a hush-hush kinda way.
Why? I wonder.
Worst thing is, I don't think I have much time left since I'm already 23 this year. How many times can I go on trying? So help me God!
Meanwhile, I'm feeling down and insecure because I've just found out that she probably applied to the same SIA ad as me. Did I mention anywhere in this blog that I applied for the position end of May this year? Well, it seems that my application didn't even get through the online screening process. Sigh! There's probably something wrong with my resume. Or my experiences aren't what they're looking for.
I received an email from them asking me to complete an online assessment. But every time I click on it, it just says I've already done it. Is this where the problem is? I honestly do not know.
According to Penny, SIA don't conduct open interviews. If that's the case, I don't think I'll ever be able to become an air stewardess with SIA. Hrmph! However, I frequently see SIA posting interview announcements on their website. If all interviews are by invitations only via email, they wouldn't have a reason to do that, right? I just hope there are other ways.
Hell, they haven't even seen me in person, I just want to be given an equal chance as everyone else. If I can't make it, then so be it. But I haven't even had a chance to know if I can make it or not! Guess I can only pray and pray that they will conduct an open interview in Malaysia soon. Hopefully in KL.
On 1 & 2 July, SIA had actually conducted an open interview in Singapore. I didn't go since it was too sudden. And it's damn hard to get holidays from my boss. Therefore, I'm stuck here in KL thinking up possibilities of what would happen if I had gone.
My biggest regret about this is that I didn't do it earlier. I should have done it last year when I was in between jobs. I was such a coward then. And the year before that. And well, I guess I didn't really know of a channel to get into it.
SIA used to advertise openly in The Star for their cabin crew vacancies. It was easier but I haven't had the courage to apply then. I didn't think I was good enough. But now it feels like they are doing it in a hush-hush kinda way.
Why? I wonder.
Worst thing is, I don't think I have much time left since I'm already 23 this year. How many times can I go on trying? So help me God!
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Which Malaysian Blogger Am I?
Congratulations Tallibeth, you are...
Joyce the Fairy of xanga.com/kinkybluefairy
If you are a car, your fuel of choice would be unleaded alcohol. You are a major party animal with an unnatural obsession with art, toys and all things fantasy. You think the world is too complicated and you wished it could be as simple as it was when you were 7 years old. You live with it. You work hard, but you don't take for granted the simple things in life that make you happy. Sweet candy, cartoon music, crazy friends, all these and more make you a happy person living in your own little world.
Monday, July 03, 2006
Thanks, PENNY!
Hey, Penny, thanks so much for the advice! I would really love to talk to you more about the interview. It's such a pity you didn't leave your email here. I'm not even sure if you'll come back and see this!
But if you do, I wish you luck in the final interview with SIA!
Knock them off with your charm, girl!
I couldn't make it to Singapore for the interview this time, too short a notice because I'm working in KL. Is there any possibilities they are coming to Malaysia this year?
By the way, are you from Singapore or Malaysia?
Hope to hear from you soon! Ciao!
But if you do, I wish you luck in the final interview with SIA!
Knock them off with your charm, girl!
I couldn't make it to Singapore for the interview this time, too short a notice because I'm working in KL. Is there any possibilities they are coming to Malaysia this year?
By the way, are you from Singapore or Malaysia?
Hope to hear from you soon! Ciao!
Friday, June 30, 2006
石头记
还记得上一篇的 「石头记」 吗？
对于 「石头」，我就只有暗恋的份而已，我始终不敢向他表白，而他也没表示什么，所以应该是我自己自作多情罢了。Linda 倒是向他表明了态度，鼓励她的别无他人，就是偶了。也许是因为自己的懦弱与不坦率，心想如果 Linda 成功跟他交往的话也不错，就好像替我圆梦一样。我还问他对 Linda 的感觉呢，应该也是利用这个机会试探他到底喜欢谁，我觉得我好狡猾，有点对不起 Linda 似的。
Linda 也有问过他，他不太认真，也没正面回答，甚至还半开玩笑的用遮菜的蓝子遮住脸。
在阁楼里，Linda 向他告白了。
「石头」 的回应是 「做朋友就好。」
之后 「石头」 的家里发生很多事，他的父母已经离婚好几年了，他跟爸爸和婆婆住，母亲是台湾人 （我好像和妈妈是台湾人的男生很有缘 － 我现任男友就是这样）。他婆婆喜欢管这管那的，也不太喜欢他跟我们一班女孩子在一起玩。渐渐的，我们越来越少上 Adlena 的家。
过了好一段时间，听 Adlena 说 「石头」 辍学了。好可惜，他连中学第一年的预备班也没念完，能够作什么呢？但我和 Linda 都只有听的份，帮不上什么。就算去 Adlena 家也见不到他，他好像永远都不在家似的。
应该是缘分未尽吧，Linda 偶然发现他在我们常去的公共游泳池当救生员，还教人游泳勒。嗯，一定有很多女学生被他迷倒了吧！我和 Linda 也有在他工作时去看过他一次，也许是因为在工作所以没理会我们吧。
迟些没人的时候，他倒是跟我们说话了。坐在高高的救生员观望椅上，望下来我们所在的泳池里。Linda 不会游泳，所以他就叫我游给他看，我不要。
「游吧！」 他说。
「为什么一定要听你的呢？」 我就是喜欢跟他作对。
之后也不记得他说了什么，我现在只是隐约记得他当时对我说了意思暧昧不清的话，
因为 Linda 也在，所以我当时非常震惊，连忙用很尖锐的语气问了他一句
「你说什么？！」，然后还瞪了他一眼。他好像也被我的反应吓到了，
抛了一句 「没有啊」，就没再说什么了。
气氛变得有点尴尬，Linda 好像局外人似的在旁看着，我也搞不清楚这一切只是我的一厢情愿、心理作用，仰或确确实实的发生过。只是，我到现在还很在意他最后的
那句话。。。是什么呢？我真的是不记得了。
就这样，我们中学毕业了，在准备上学院的期间，我和 Linda 各自努力的工作着。一天，Linda 又遇见了 「石头」，就在她工作的百货公司里 （她当时是化妆柜台小姐），「石头」 竟然在卖盗版 VCD！而且他的头发还染成了很 ah beng 的金色。
我们俩都想再见见他，于是 Linda 就约了在他家附近吃午餐。
那是一顿尴尬又沉闷的午餐，他又缩进我们刚认识他的软壳里了，不多话，
酷的很冰冷。没办法，毕竟我们已经好几年没见面了。
又一段日子过去了，Linda 再次鼓起勇气约他见面 （我打从心底佩服她，永不放弃）。
他答应了。
可是，当日他却跟 Linda 说他不想出去了，想待在家里。于是，Linda 就到他家去了，但是 「石头」 并没有好好的招呼 Linda，他反而把她丢在客厅，自己却跑上楼去讲电话！
真是逊毙了！
Linda 为此伤心不已，就算当时我还喜欢着 「石头」，听了这些之后，多少还是对他有些许的反感，喜欢他的心情也慢慢的开始瓦解。
但是我就是不能完全讨厌他，其实也没很充分的理由那么做。
那之后，我就再也没见过他了。有听说他去了台湾，因为他母亲的身体不太好，所以就接他过去陪她了。
又过了一两年，Linda 竟然在某个台湾综艺节目中看到他了！真是太不可思议了！那是一个女生倒追男生的节目，我已经忘了节目名称，但我想大概很多人还记得吧。总之就是要女生在人来人往的西门町向陌生男子搭讪。
听了 Linda 的描述，真是超爆笑的！
「石头」 当时也好像在等人，该节目安排的女生上前向他搭讪，他带着黑色墨镜 （根本就是在扮酷嘛！），穿得一身黑 （唉，还是老样子，就 ah beng 样嘛，在台湾应该是被称为 「台客」 呗）。
他拒绝了那女的，但那女的穷追不舍，总该向节目有个交代吧，所以也只好厚着脸皮上了。他仍然无动于衷，这时，一位中年妇女突然焦急的接近这对年轻人。
「请你就别再骚扰他了，你几岁啊？还这么小就做这种事？」 女人对女孩说。
而在一旁的 「石头」 只能默默的露出尴尬的神情，原本是要耍酷的，结果却巫龙收场，太好笑了！我不是在嘲笑他啦，只是单纯的觉得好笑而已。
最近，不知怎的，突然就好想再见到他。
对于 「石头」，我就只有暗恋的份而已，我始终不敢向他表白，而他也没表示什么，所以应该是我自己自作多情罢了。Linda 倒是向他表明了态度，鼓励她的别无他人，就是偶了。也许是因为自己的懦弱与不坦率，心想如果 Linda 成功跟他交往的话也不错，就好像替我圆梦一样。我还问他对 Linda 的感觉呢，应该也是利用这个机会试探他到底喜欢谁，我觉得我好狡猾，有点对不起 Linda 似的。
Linda 也有问过他，他不太认真，也没正面回答，甚至还半开玩笑的用遮菜的蓝子遮住脸。
在阁楼里，Linda 向他告白了。
「石头」 的回应是 「做朋友就好。」
之后 「石头」 的家里发生很多事，他的父母已经离婚好几年了，他跟爸爸和婆婆住，母亲是台湾人 （我好像和妈妈是台湾人的男生很有缘 － 我现任男友就是这样）。他婆婆喜欢管这管那的，也不太喜欢他跟我们一班女孩子在一起玩。渐渐的，我们越来越少上 Adlena 的家。
过了好一段时间，听 Adlena 说 「石头」 辍学了。好可惜，他连中学第一年的预备班也没念完，能够作什么呢？但我和 Linda 都只有听的份，帮不上什么。就算去 Adlena 家也见不到他，他好像永远都不在家似的。
应该是缘分未尽吧，Linda 偶然发现他在我们常去的公共游泳池当救生员，还教人游泳勒。嗯，一定有很多女学生被他迷倒了吧！我和 Linda 也有在他工作时去看过他一次，也许是因为在工作所以没理会我们吧。
迟些没人的时候，他倒是跟我们说话了。坐在高高的救生员观望椅上，望下来我们所在的泳池里。Linda 不会游泳，所以他就叫我游给他看，我不要。
「游吧！」 他说。
「为什么一定要听你的呢？」 我就是喜欢跟他作对。
之后也不记得他说了什么，我现在只是隐约记得他当时对我说了意思暧昧不清的话，
因为 Linda 也在，所以我当时非常震惊，连忙用很尖锐的语气问了他一句
「你说什么？！」，然后还瞪了他一眼。他好像也被我的反应吓到了，
抛了一句 「没有啊」，就没再说什么了。
气氛变得有点尴尬，Linda 好像局外人似的在旁看着，我也搞不清楚这一切只是我的一厢情愿、心理作用，仰或确确实实的发生过。只是，我到现在还很在意他最后的
那句话。。。是什么呢？我真的是不记得了。
就这样，我们中学毕业了，在准备上学院的期间，我和 Linda 各自努力的工作着。一天，Linda 又遇见了 「石头」，就在她工作的百货公司里 （她当时是化妆柜台小姐），「石头」 竟然在卖盗版 VCD！而且他的头发还染成了很 ah beng 的金色。
我们俩都想再见见他，于是 Linda 就约了在他家附近吃午餐。
那是一顿尴尬又沉闷的午餐，他又缩进我们刚认识他的软壳里了，不多话，
酷的很冰冷。没办法，毕竟我们已经好几年没见面了。
又一段日子过去了，Linda 再次鼓起勇气约他见面 （我打从心底佩服她，永不放弃）。
他答应了。
可是，当日他却跟 Linda 说他不想出去了，想待在家里。于是，Linda 就到他家去了，但是 「石头」 并没有好好的招呼 Linda，他反而把她丢在客厅，自己却跑上楼去讲电话！
真是逊毙了！
Linda 为此伤心不已，就算当时我还喜欢着 「石头」，听了这些之后，多少还是对他有些许的反感，喜欢他的心情也慢慢的开始瓦解。
但是我就是不能完全讨厌他，其实也没很充分的理由那么做。
那之后，我就再也没见过他了。有听说他去了台湾，因为他母亲的身体不太好，所以就接他过去陪她了。
又过了一两年，Linda 竟然在某个台湾综艺节目中看到他了！真是太不可思议了！那是一个女生倒追男生的节目，我已经忘了节目名称，但我想大概很多人还记得吧。总之就是要女生在人来人往的西门町向陌生男子搭讪。
听了 Linda 的描述，真是超爆笑的！
「石头」 当时也好像在等人，该节目安排的女生上前向他搭讪，他带着黑色墨镜 （根本就是在扮酷嘛！），穿得一身黑 （唉，还是老样子，就 ah beng 样嘛，在台湾应该是被称为 「台客」 呗）。
他拒绝了那女的，但那女的穷追不舍，总该向节目有个交代吧，所以也只好厚着脸皮上了。他仍然无动于衷，这时，一位中年妇女突然焦急的接近这对年轻人。
「请你就别再骚扰他了，你几岁啊？还这么小就做这种事？」 女人对女孩说。
而在一旁的 「石头」 只能默默的露出尴尬的神情，原本是要耍酷的，结果却巫龙收场，太好笑了！我不是在嘲笑他啦，只是单纯的觉得好笑而已。
最近，不知怎的，突然就好想再见到他。
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
???
突然发觉，原来我一直都对中性美的男生情有独钟。
比如说上一篇的柏原崇啦、Taylor Hanson、龙泽秀明 （现在已经一点感觉都没了，他太没突破了），诸如此类的。
事实上，我的现任男友也是有几分脂粉味的，性格也比较像女生，很细腻，很体贴。
我呢，正好相反，总是大刺刺的，什么都敢说，有时还会口勿遮拦。
异性相吸，我绝对是相信的。
可是，记忆中就有那么一个男生，样子不会中性啦，但还是蛮帅的，超爱耍酷，而且还小我两岁。我这个花痴女暗恋过的男生不计其数，唯独他的身影回荡在我内心深处，挥之不去。也许因为他是我众多暗恋对象当中，最养眼的吧。
十四岁那年吧，我约了 Linda 到 Adlena 家晃。一如往常，Linda 又迟到了，我坐在客厅地上跟 Adlena 看电视。不知怎的，视线突然被隔壁隔着篱笆望进来的男生占据了，他长的很好看，酷似 Leonardo DiCaprio。那时正好是 「铁达尼号」 的全盛时期，Linda 很喜欢 Leo，而我受了一点点感染。
总之那男的就一直目不转睛的望过来，我们四目交会，看得我都不好意思而别过头去了。十四岁的女生应该是情窦初开的时候吧，有些许小鹿乱撞的感觉。我从眼角看到他走向他家的大闸门，要外出似的。
「去哪儿呢？」 I wonder.
忽然开闸门的声响传进我的耳膜。
「咦，他不是刚刚才开了门吗？」 我好奇的想。
但这声响好像很靠近，我抬头，看见他竟开了 Adlena 家的门，走了进来。
他一进门就一屁股坐在门边的沙发上，默不作声。这一切对他来说好像都那么的自然，甚至连 Adlena 都懒得去管他。我越想越觉得奇怪，那尴尬的气氛维持了好一段时间，我也忘了 Linda 到底是那时还是之后才到。那瞬间，我眼里应该只有他而已吧。
终於，我决定让那奇怪的气氛终结。
「这人到底是干嘛的啊？为什么突然开门进来坐在那里，又一直闷不吭声？好奇怪！」我没好气的大声问 Adlena。
「喔，他是住隔壁的，我邻居啦！」 Adlena 回答。
「对了，你怎么来了？」 她转向那个男的问道。但他还是保持沉默。
还真会装，我心想。
之后才知道他的名字，蛮好听的，在这我就卖个关子了。
Linda 到了之后也一直注视着他，接着我们就全员跑到楼上去玩了。在 Adlena 房间里，我跟寄宿在她家，同样小我们两岁的良伟比腕力，呵呵，我赢了，我连忙大声嘲笑他，因为他是男的嘛！他也很配合的作出了被欺负的可怜模样，超爆笑的！
「我也要玩！」 这时，「石头」 突然说话了！
「原来你也会说话啊？玩就玩，你可别输哦！」 我大胆放话。
结果哩，我战死杀场。糗的勒！
他的手腕好有力，我好像要赢了，但又被他反弹了回来，好阴险哦！让我看见一线曙光，结果又把我推进无底深渊！（是形容的夸张了点啦）
自那次以后，我和 Linda 就经常去 Adlena 家。多半是因为他吧，不出我所料，Linda 也对他有
好感。一如往常，我没把心事跟任何人说。
奇怪的是，「石头」 经常都会向我恶作剧，他鲜少对其他人这么做。虽然他是个问题学生，课业也差，但他对女孩子倒很绅士，不像是为了讨好别人而装出来的，他对男生也一样，只是对女生会比较温柔和体贴。我开始怀疑他是不是也对我有感觉，但当时我并不会打扮，又顶着四百多度近视的厚眼镜，所以我也不敢太自作多情，而且也听说他已经有女朋友，刚交往不久，也是戴眼镜的。
只是，他真的越来越令我搞不懂。
有一次，我在 Adlena 家的楼梯下找东西却找不到，当我站起身时，竟惊觉他就站在我右边，他比我高，虽然当时他才十二岁而已 （根本不像），所以我一转身就只能面对他的胸口。我抬起头，天啊，他的脸靠我超近的！而且他还老神在在、像个木头似的盯着我看。怪不好意思的，我别过脸去，以无所谓的语气打发他帮我找东西，而他也马上就钻进杂物当中照做了。我呢，则是待在他后面平复心情，心在狂跳的勒！
另一次，我兴高采烈的带着刚买的直排滑轮到 Adlena 家去，我是买了之后才学的，百货公司大平卖，所以很便宜。Linda 也有来我家玩过，之后她爸爸还从新加玻买了一双更好的给她。总之我就约了 Linda 到 Adlena 家滑啦。
「石头」 ，良伟和 Adlena 只在一旁看而已，滑了一段时间后，我脱下滑轮休息。良伟跑来跟我说 「石头」 想跟我借来滑，我看了他一眼，说 「可以啊，但我有脚臭，你好自为知咯！」
他一副无所谓的样子，试着把脚塞进鞋里，结果良伟的一句 「脚太大了，穿不进啦！」
令得我啼笑皆非。之后 「石头」 也只好待在一旁作观众了。
但良伟倒是向 Linda 借了滑轮，幸好他也穿得下，不幸的是，因为玩得太 high 了，Linda 害得良伟摔了一跤，膝盖还流血呢，Adlena 也责怪她 (Adlena 生气时超可怕的）。伤口处理好后，我跟良伟胡闹，打发时间，一个不小心就把他的膝盖推向 Adlena 的枕头，结果伤口溢出来的血汁沾到了 Adlena 的枕头。
「好脏！你们现在说怎么办！」 Adlena 气愤的嚷到。
「好啦、好啦，你就别生气了，我拿去洗就是了，对不起啦！」 我说。
「那还差不多！」 Adlena 满意的说道。
于是我拿着枕头套到浴室去，「石头」 站在门边看着我洗。
「咦，你会洗衣的吗？」 他讽刺的问。
「当然了，很简单而已嘛！」 我没好气的回答。
他突然把浴室的门迅速的拉上，把我锁在里面，还关灯勒，浴室里巫漆抹黑的。
「你关灯我怎么洗啊？我不怕的啦，吓不到我的，放弃吧！」 我向门外的他叫到。
他还是不开门，过了几分钟，大概是见我对他的恶作剧无动于衷吧，就识相的把门打开了。
「不好玩。」 他说，于是走掉了。
接着，竟是良伟来凑热闹，头痛哦！
又一次，我、Linda、Adlena 排排坐在客厅的沙发，而那两个白痴男就坐在我们对面的沙发，他们竟不要命的开始谈论起我们三个女生的长相来了！
第一个是 Adlena，他们你一言、我一句的说，倘若 Adlena 脸上的豆豆消除的话，应该也蛮不错的。而 Linda 呢，竟被他们说成麻将台的脸，是蛮好笑的啦，所以我就难以控制的笑了出来啊，结果竟招来叛徒之名，唉！做人难喔！
轮到我时，「石头」 叫我除下眼镜，我说什么都不肯。
「脱掉啦！」 他说。
「不脱！」
「脱！」
「不脱！」
「脱啦！我给你一百块钱，脱掉啦！」
「哇，你把我当什么了？妓女吗？不脱就是不脱啦！」
他拿我没办法，所以就放弃了，也没进一步讨论我。稍后，我才自己把眼镜脱下，望着他，他看到了，没说什么，感觉就好像我在挑逗他似的。我一向对暧昧不清的感觉最没抵抗力了，超爽的！
由于每次去 Adlena 家就会待一整天，所以我们经常会带衣服去，洗了澡再回家。天色暗了，我和 Linda 轮流洗澡，这天，我带了一件宽松的长袖格子衬衫和短裤。洗完澡后，我们就到楼下混，等待 Adlena 的妈妈开晚饭，吃了才回去。
我们这几个没事作的闲人很无聊的开始比较起谁的 BCG 最大，轮到我的时候，因为袖子太长了，所以就一直拉不上而不能秀出我的 BCG。
「太肥了啦，看不到。」 我自嘲。
「不要紧啦。」 他说。
然后他们全都跑到厨房去了，厨房很热，所以我就一个人待在前厅里。刚洗完澡，天气又凉凉的，有一种昏昏欲睡的感觉，很舒服。
中厅只开了一盏灯，于是，前厅就显得阴暗了。突然，「石头」 像小孩子般的，蹦蹦跳跳来到了我面前，脸上还挂着天真无邪的笑容，我有一点惊讶，他平时都酷酷的。
「干嘛啊你？这么开心？」 我好奇的问道。
「没有啊，呵呵。」 他笑着对我说。
接着，他竟然伸手翻了翻我的领口，我们的距离好近好近，我用尽全身的力气把自己硬压在那里而不逃走。他还拉了我的领口一下，示意要把我的衣服扯开，我简直就傻住了，这跟我认识的他 （虽然不是很久） 完全不同！还好他及时停手，要不我就要让他吃拳头了！
「跟你玩的啦！」 他一脸俏皮的笑着对我说，然后就跑回厨房了。
好了啦，这篇我就写了两天，而且是工作的时候偷懒写的 （这几天其实也蛮轻松的啦），那么就这样啦！
下篇持续！
比如说上一篇的柏原崇啦、Taylor Hanson、龙泽秀明 （现在已经一点感觉都没了，他太没突破了），诸如此类的。
事实上，我的现任男友也是有几分脂粉味的，性格也比较像女生，很细腻，很体贴。
我呢，正好相反，总是大刺刺的，什么都敢说，有时还会口勿遮拦。
异性相吸，我绝对是相信的。
可是，记忆中就有那么一个男生，样子不会中性啦，但还是蛮帅的，超爱耍酷，而且还小我两岁。我这个花痴女暗恋过的男生不计其数，唯独他的身影回荡在我内心深处，挥之不去。也许因为他是我众多暗恋对象当中，最养眼的吧。
十四岁那年吧，我约了 Linda 到 Adlena 家晃。一如往常，Linda 又迟到了，我坐在客厅地上跟 Adlena 看电视。不知怎的，视线突然被隔壁隔着篱笆望进来的男生占据了，他长的很好看，酷似 Leonardo DiCaprio。那时正好是 「铁达尼号」 的全盛时期，Linda 很喜欢 Leo，而我受了一点点感染。
总之那男的就一直目不转睛的望过来，我们四目交会，看得我都不好意思而别过头去了。十四岁的女生应该是情窦初开的时候吧，有些许小鹿乱撞的感觉。我从眼角看到他走向他家的大闸门，要外出似的。
「去哪儿呢？」 I wonder.
忽然开闸门的声响传进我的耳膜。
「咦，他不是刚刚才开了门吗？」 我好奇的想。
但这声响好像很靠近，我抬头，看见他竟开了 Adlena 家的门，走了进来。
他一进门就一屁股坐在门边的沙发上，默不作声。这一切对他来说好像都那么的自然，甚至连 Adlena 都懒得去管他。我越想越觉得奇怪，那尴尬的气氛维持了好一段时间，我也忘了 Linda 到底是那时还是之后才到。那瞬间，我眼里应该只有他而已吧。
终於，我决定让那奇怪的气氛终结。
「这人到底是干嘛的啊？为什么突然开门进来坐在那里，又一直闷不吭声？好奇怪！」我没好气的大声问 Adlena。
「喔，他是住隔壁的，我邻居啦！」 Adlena 回答。
「对了，你怎么来了？」 她转向那个男的问道。但他还是保持沉默。
还真会装，我心想。
之后才知道他的名字，蛮好听的，在这我就卖个关子了。
Linda 到了之后也一直注视着他，接着我们就全员跑到楼上去玩了。在 Adlena 房间里，我跟寄宿在她家，同样小我们两岁的良伟比腕力，呵呵，我赢了，我连忙大声嘲笑他，因为他是男的嘛！他也很配合的作出了被欺负的可怜模样，超爆笑的！
「我也要玩！」 这时，「石头」 突然说话了！
「原来你也会说话啊？玩就玩，你可别输哦！」 我大胆放话。
结果哩，我战死杀场。糗的勒！
他的手腕好有力，我好像要赢了，但又被他反弹了回来，好阴险哦！让我看见一线曙光，结果又把我推进无底深渊！（是形容的夸张了点啦）
自那次以后，我和 Linda 就经常去 Adlena 家。多半是因为他吧，不出我所料，Linda 也对他有
好感。一如往常，我没把心事跟任何人说。
奇怪的是，「石头」 经常都会向我恶作剧，他鲜少对其他人这么做。虽然他是个问题学生，课业也差，但他对女孩子倒很绅士，不像是为了讨好别人而装出来的，他对男生也一样，只是对女生会比较温柔和体贴。我开始怀疑他是不是也对我有感觉，但当时我并不会打扮，又顶着四百多度近视的厚眼镜，所以我也不敢太自作多情，而且也听说他已经有女朋友，刚交往不久，也是戴眼镜的。
只是，他真的越来越令我搞不懂。
有一次，我在 Adlena 家的楼梯下找东西却找不到，当我站起身时，竟惊觉他就站在我右边，他比我高，虽然当时他才十二岁而已 （根本不像），所以我一转身就只能面对他的胸口。我抬起头，天啊，他的脸靠我超近的！而且他还老神在在、像个木头似的盯着我看。怪不好意思的，我别过脸去，以无所谓的语气打发他帮我找东西，而他也马上就钻进杂物当中照做了。我呢，则是待在他后面平复心情，心在狂跳的勒！
另一次，我兴高采烈的带着刚买的直排滑轮到 Adlena 家去，我是买了之后才学的，百货公司大平卖，所以很便宜。Linda 也有来我家玩过，之后她爸爸还从新加玻买了一双更好的给她。总之我就约了 Linda 到 Adlena 家滑啦。
「石头」 ，良伟和 Adlena 只在一旁看而已，滑了一段时间后，我脱下滑轮休息。良伟跑来跟我说 「石头」 想跟我借来滑，我看了他一眼，说 「可以啊，但我有脚臭，你好自为知咯！」
他一副无所谓的样子，试着把脚塞进鞋里，结果良伟的一句 「脚太大了，穿不进啦！」
令得我啼笑皆非。之后 「石头」 也只好待在一旁作观众了。
但良伟倒是向 Linda 借了滑轮，幸好他也穿得下，不幸的是，因为玩得太 high 了，Linda 害得良伟摔了一跤，膝盖还流血呢，Adlena 也责怪她 (Adlena 生气时超可怕的）。伤口处理好后，我跟良伟胡闹，打发时间，一个不小心就把他的膝盖推向 Adlena 的枕头，结果伤口溢出来的血汁沾到了 Adlena 的枕头。
「好脏！你们现在说怎么办！」 Adlena 气愤的嚷到。
「好啦、好啦，你就别生气了，我拿去洗就是了，对不起啦！」 我说。
「那还差不多！」 Adlena 满意的说道。
于是我拿着枕头套到浴室去，「石头」 站在门边看着我洗。
「咦，你会洗衣的吗？」 他讽刺的问。
「当然了，很简单而已嘛！」 我没好气的回答。
他突然把浴室的门迅速的拉上，把我锁在里面，还关灯勒，浴室里巫漆抹黑的。
「你关灯我怎么洗啊？我不怕的啦，吓不到我的，放弃吧！」 我向门外的他叫到。
他还是不开门，过了几分钟，大概是见我对他的恶作剧无动于衷吧，就识相的把门打开了。
「不好玩。」 他说，于是走掉了。
接着，竟是良伟来凑热闹，头痛哦！
又一次，我、Linda、Adlena 排排坐在客厅的沙发，而那两个白痴男就坐在我们对面的沙发，他们竟不要命的开始谈论起我们三个女生的长相来了！
第一个是 Adlena，他们你一言、我一句的说，倘若 Adlena 脸上的豆豆消除的话，应该也蛮不错的。而 Linda 呢，竟被他们说成麻将台的脸，是蛮好笑的啦，所以我就难以控制的笑了出来啊，结果竟招来叛徒之名，唉！做人难喔！
轮到我时，「石头」 叫我除下眼镜，我说什么都不肯。
「脱掉啦！」 他说。
「不脱！」
「脱！」
「不脱！」
「脱啦！我给你一百块钱，脱掉啦！」
「哇，你把我当什么了？妓女吗？不脱就是不脱啦！」
他拿我没办法，所以就放弃了，也没进一步讨论我。稍后，我才自己把眼镜脱下，望着他，他看到了，没说什么，感觉就好像我在挑逗他似的。我一向对暧昧不清的感觉最没抵抗力了，超爽的！
由于每次去 Adlena 家就会待一整天，所以我们经常会带衣服去，洗了澡再回家。天色暗了，我和 Linda 轮流洗澡，这天，我带了一件宽松的长袖格子衬衫和短裤。洗完澡后，我们就到楼下混，等待 Adlena 的妈妈开晚饭，吃了才回去。
我们这几个没事作的闲人很无聊的开始比较起谁的 BCG 最大，轮到我的时候，因为袖子太长了，所以就一直拉不上而不能秀出我的 BCG。
「太肥了啦，看不到。」 我自嘲。
「不要紧啦。」 他说。
然后他们全都跑到厨房去了，厨房很热，所以我就一个人待在前厅里。刚洗完澡，天气又凉凉的，有一种昏昏欲睡的感觉，很舒服。
中厅只开了一盏灯，于是，前厅就显得阴暗了。突然，「石头」 像小孩子般的，蹦蹦跳跳来到了我面前，脸上还挂着天真无邪的笑容，我有一点惊讶，他平时都酷酷的。
「干嘛啊你？这么开心？」 我好奇的问道。
「没有啊，呵呵。」 他笑着对我说。
接着，他竟然伸手翻了翻我的领口，我们的距离好近好近，我用尽全身的力气把自己硬压在那里而不逃走。他还拉了我的领口一下，示意要把我的衣服扯开，我简直就傻住了，这跟我认识的他 （虽然不是很久） 完全不同！还好他及时停手，要不我就要让他吃拳头了！
「跟你玩的啦！」 他一脸俏皮的笑着对我说，然后就跑回厨房了。
好了啦，这篇我就写了两天，而且是工作的时候偷懒写的 （这几天其实也蛮轻松的啦），那么就这样啦！
下篇持续！
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
爱上了。。。
最近疯狂爱上柏原崇。
上星期买了一大堆VCD回家，其中就有日本经典搞笑日剧 － 「恶作剧之吻」。那是一部我很久以前所看过的剧集，大概中三的时候吧。当时就觉得片中的入江植树很帅，简直就是漫画里走出来的人嘛 （这是现在的感想，当时根本不看漫画），怎么会有男生长这么可爱！
虽然觉得戏中的琴子很吵，整部片子也很白痴无聊，但是还是因为柏原崇的缘故，而一直追看到最后。剧集播完后，就再也没看到他的戏，直至 「情书」。他再次扮演一位花一般的少年，太可怜了！总觉得他被自己清秀的外表所局限了，怪无奈的。之后也没特别留意他的消息。
那天之所以会买那么旧的片子是因为它便宜，哈哈，对啊，我就～～～是那么吝啬！最近日剧都被丢在角落，被遗忘了。取而代之的是一叠又叠的韩剧。
我恨透韩剧了！
节奏超慢，配音差，大部分男主角更是让我看了就想喷饭！也因为这阵不知从何而来的韩风，令得我最哈的日剧被摆在一旁，说来也可笑，我却因这股韩流而捡到了便宜，真不知是喜是悲呐！
总之就是突然爱上了柏原崇啦，还上网搜集他各式各样的照片呢！其实我对他的事真是一无所知，是单纯喜欢他的脸而已，就好像一幅很完美的艺术品，你不需要去了解它，只要会欣赏它的美就够了 （好像有点在形容女人）。
这么说的我也许很肤浅，但这应该也是最直截了当的了。
对了，最近有部新的惊悚片，名为 「黑夜」，刚开始时是蛮想去看的，但其后又犹豫了，因为感觉就跟 「三更」 差不多一样 － 三个来自不同国家的恐怖故事。
可是最近我发现了一个会促使我去看这部戏的因素。
BINGO！就是「他」了！请大家多多支持哦！
上星期买了一大堆VCD回家，其中就有日本经典搞笑日剧 － 「恶作剧之吻」。那是一部我很久以前所看过的剧集，大概中三的时候吧。当时就觉得片中的入江植树很帅，简直就是漫画里走出来的人嘛 （这是现在的感想，当时根本不看漫画），怎么会有男生长这么可爱！
虽然觉得戏中的琴子很吵，整部片子也很白痴无聊，但是还是因为柏原崇的缘故，而一直追看到最后。剧集播完后，就再也没看到他的戏，直至 「情书」。他再次扮演一位花一般的少年，太可怜了！总觉得他被自己清秀的外表所局限了，怪无奈的。之后也没特别留意他的消息。
那天之所以会买那么旧的片子是因为它便宜，哈哈，对啊，我就～～～是那么吝啬！最近日剧都被丢在角落，被遗忘了。取而代之的是一叠又叠的韩剧。
我恨透韩剧了！
节奏超慢，配音差，大部分男主角更是让我看了就想喷饭！也因为这阵不知从何而来的韩风，令得我最哈的日剧被摆在一旁，说来也可笑，我却因这股韩流而捡到了便宜，真不知是喜是悲呐！
总之就是突然爱上了柏原崇啦，还上网搜集他各式各样的照片呢！其实我对他的事真是一无所知，是单纯喜欢他的脸而已，就好像一幅很完美的艺术品，你不需要去了解它，只要会欣赏它的美就够了 （好像有点在形容女人）。
这么说的我也许很肤浅，但这应该也是最直截了当的了。
对了，最近有部新的惊悚片，名为 「黑夜」，刚开始时是蛮想去看的，但其后又犹豫了，因为感觉就跟 「三更」 差不多一样 － 三个来自不同国家的恐怖故事。
可是最近我发现了一个会促使我去看这部戏的因素。
BINGO！就是「他」了！请大家多多支持哦！
Friday, June 16, 2006
Sick Cat
Right now, i'm sitting in my office with a runny nose and a phlegm-filled sore throat. Thank God It's Friday! Maybe i should go to TGIF then? Hmmm...
Applied online to SIA as their flight stewardess 2 weeks ago but still no replies. Well, the day after I submitted my resume, I logged into their website and found my submission indicated as "Screening". I was hopeful then, at least it was being screened. And I got this email from them asking me to complete an online assessment. But every time I tried to do it, it said that I've done it already. Ok. The "Screening" indication continued for a few days before it totally disappeared and no further indication was provided. Man, i'm beginning to worry.
No matter what, I'm going to their walk-in interview when they come to Malaysia. I'm determined to get this job, just hope it will come true
I would really lurrrrvvvvvvvvvve to have this job! Who wouldn't, right? You get to fly all around the world and meet different people everyday on top of gaining invaluable experiences! Frankly speaking, aside from SIA, I'm not really interested with other airlines, since they're one of the bests around (and the pay is great!). However, if I fail, I might try out others. Well, can't think about failure now, must think about success!
I went to www.cabincrew.com and read about other wannabe cabin crews' experiences. It might surprise you that eventhough you possess a good education and work background in addition to having good looks, it doesn't necessarily guarantee you a place in the judges' heart during an airline interview. They can be extremely tough, especially SIA, I heard. Some girls went a few times but still haven't get recruited. From what I've read, it largely depends on luck too.
Recently, I have one friend from college who attended an interview conducted by Qatar Airways and she got it
Shyan really supports me in it. But then he supports me in everything I do. I really feel extremely fortunate to have him for my boyfriend.
Gotta get back to work now. Talk later!
Applied online to SIA as their flight stewardess 2 weeks ago but still no replies. Well, the day after I submitted my resume, I logged into their website and found my submission indicated as "Screening". I was hopeful then, at least it was being screened. And I got this email from them asking me to complete an online assessment. But every time I tried to do it, it said that I've done it already. Ok. The "Screening" indication continued for a few days before it totally disappeared and no further indication was provided. Man, i'm beginning to worry.
No matter what, I'm going to their walk-in interview when they come to Malaysia. I'm determined to get this job, just hope it will come true
I would really lurrrrvvvvvvvvvve to have this job! Who wouldn't, right? You get to fly all around the world and meet different people everyday on top of gaining invaluable experiences! Frankly speaking, aside from SIA, I'm not really interested with other airlines, since they're one of the bests around (and the pay is great!). However, if I fail, I might try out others. Well, can't think about failure now, must think about success!
I went to www.cabincrew.com and read about other wannabe cabin crews' experiences. It might surprise you that eventhough you possess a good education and work background in addition to having good looks, it doesn't necessarily guarantee you a place in the judges' heart during an airline interview. They can be extremely tough, especially SIA, I heard. Some girls went a few times but still haven't get recruited. From what I've read, it largely depends on luck too.
Recently, I have one friend from college who attended an interview conducted by Qatar Airways and she got it
Shyan really supports me in it. But then he supports me in everything I do. I really feel extremely fortunate to have him for my boyfriend.
Gotta get back to work now. Talk later!
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
Evil Vanquisher...
No, I dunno whether there is a word like "vanquisher", but I'm almost certain there isn't. Whatever. Bear with the facts that yours truly ain't got an elaborate vocabulary to boast of, so there.
Recently, I started reading a Manga series entitled Akumetsu. The literal translation for that is the Evil Vanquisher. Nah, the Vanquisher doesn't go around killing vampires or weird monsters. But he does go on a killing spree of Japanese politicians who are corrupted and deemed evil by himself.
I think that's the biggest problem faced by the world today - corrupted politicians, who consequentially turn out equally corrupted governments. I can understand why the author came up with a story like that, albeit I'm none too keen on the world of fucked-up politics.
After all, I'm sure most of us out here have had a taste of the efficiency-deprived and probably fraudulent government. Don't be too sad, though, it happens everywhere in the world. It has become a disease most of us have begun to turn a blind eye to. Not that you could have done anything about it anyway.
Anyways, in the story, the Akumetsu kills off all the political big shots who do a great deal of dirty jobs with the taxpayers' dollars, on top of twisting the truth in order to legalize their evil deeds. They die gruesome deaths, I tell you.
One got a head burst with a flare gun. Another got his fingers fired off one by one before the Vanquisher finally showed his mercy and ended his misery. Some were burned alive while another was wedge-locked to the top of a Countach moving in high speed towards a half-built bridge. Needless to say, the poor guy was shattered to pieces with the vehicle before it exploded altogether. What a way to die!
The manga author must have tried killing the likes of these corrupted men a thousand million times in his dreams, I guess. Well, mangas have always mirrored what we can't do in reality, be it limited either by our mortality or the boundary of the laws.
The story might have sounded a bit extremist or even terroristic. But it's still the raw feeling and thought all of us humans experience, isn't it? If unrestricted, every single one of us would have got rid of any obstacles unlucky enough to be caught in our paths, eh?
Along with every killing, an Akumetsu will die too. As the saying goes, an eye for an eye. Therefore, it was a perfectly fair deal. Deeper into the tale, it was revealed that Akumetsus were actually clones in a super-human experiment. When one of them dies on a mission, the tribal mask they wear while completing their missions will self-destruct by exploding. The mask has a chip which was linked to the memory part of the brain, therefore, their total recollection til that final second would be trasmitted straight back to the next replacement clone in the lab.
Knowing these, you might think that it isn't fair after all, that the politicians have to die a total death whereas the Vanquishers may live on as clones. Well, perhaps you could try to remember that clones aren't machines or dolls without emotions or feelings. They are every bit as human as us, only their creator is not the Almighty God, if you have a belief, but us. We could very well be the creations that recreate, which is why human cloning is banned due to the question of ethics.
My point is, you won't think of 1+1=2 any less correct than what it should be if it's calculated by a calculator and not by human brain, rite?
Moreover, the Vanquisher clones did have their own lives prior to carrying out the mission. They went to school or work and even had to be scolded by the boss like you and me.
Something really needs to be done to the government of this country. Just look at how a certain ethnicity is given privileges even though they don't deserve it, if you ask me (and a whole lot of other people). And in contrast, how deprived the others are, of education, financial loans, etc.
This ethnicity in question can have rock bottom bad grades but still gain a place in prestigious education institutions, whereas others have to work twice as hard to get in even though their results and performance are a million times better. Talk about double standards. We are humans all the same, aren't we? So treat us equally!
That same ethnic group could even purchase properties at much lower prices than the others because the government says they are the native race of this country. Bullshit! You could say that if all the others were not born and bred here. But they are! Aren't we all your countrymen just the same?
And the willful government still has the guts to grumble about us not being patriotic and loyal enough to the country. What fools would pledge loyalty to a country that does not recognize their value as a people?
I suspect the people governing our country had been abducted by aliens from a faraway planet and stuffed with bullshit in their pathetic brains.
Recently, I started reading a Manga series entitled Akumetsu. The literal translation for that is the Evil Vanquisher. Nah, the Vanquisher doesn't go around killing vampires or weird monsters. But he does go on a killing spree of Japanese politicians who are corrupted and deemed evil by himself.
I think that's the biggest problem faced by the world today - corrupted politicians, who consequentially turn out equally corrupted governments. I can understand why the author came up with a story like that, albeit I'm none too keen on the world of fucked-up politics.
After all, I'm sure most of us out here have had a taste of the efficiency-deprived and probably fraudulent government. Don't be too sad, though, it happens everywhere in the world. It has become a disease most of us have begun to turn a blind eye to. Not that you could have done anything about it anyway.
Anyways, in the story, the Akumetsu kills off all the political big shots who do a great deal of dirty jobs with the taxpayers' dollars, on top of twisting the truth in order to legalize their evil deeds. They die gruesome deaths, I tell you.
One got a head burst with a flare gun. Another got his fingers fired off one by one before the Vanquisher finally showed his mercy and ended his misery. Some were burned alive while another was wedge-locked to the top of a Countach moving in high speed towards a half-built bridge. Needless to say, the poor guy was shattered to pieces with the vehicle before it exploded altogether. What a way to die!
The manga author must have tried killing the likes of these corrupted men a thousand million times in his dreams, I guess. Well, mangas have always mirrored what we can't do in reality, be it limited either by our mortality or the boundary of the laws.
The story might have sounded a bit extremist or even terroristic. But it's still the raw feeling and thought all of us humans experience, isn't it? If unrestricted, every single one of us would have got rid of any obstacles unlucky enough to be caught in our paths, eh?
Along with every killing, an Akumetsu will die too. As the saying goes, an eye for an eye. Therefore, it was a perfectly fair deal. Deeper into the tale, it was revealed that Akumetsus were actually clones in a super-human experiment. When one of them dies on a mission, the tribal mask they wear while completing their missions will self-destruct by exploding. The mask has a chip which was linked to the memory part of the brain, therefore, their total recollection til that final second would be trasmitted straight back to the next replacement clone in the lab.
Knowing these, you might think that it isn't fair after all, that the politicians have to die a total death whereas the Vanquishers may live on as clones. Well, perhaps you could try to remember that clones aren't machines or dolls without emotions or feelings. They are every bit as human as us, only their creator is not the Almighty God, if you have a belief, but us. We could very well be the creations that recreate, which is why human cloning is banned due to the question of ethics.
My point is, you won't think of 1+1=2 any less correct than what it should be if it's calculated by a calculator and not by human brain, rite?
Moreover, the Vanquisher clones did have their own lives prior to carrying out the mission. They went to school or work and even had to be scolded by the boss like you and me.
Something really needs to be done to the government of this country. Just look at how a certain ethnicity is given privileges even though they don't deserve it, if you ask me (and a whole lot of other people). And in contrast, how deprived the others are, of education, financial loans, etc.
This ethnicity in question can have rock bottom bad grades but still gain a place in prestigious education institutions, whereas others have to work twice as hard to get in even though their results and performance are a million times better. Talk about double standards. We are humans all the same, aren't we? So treat us equally!
That same ethnic group could even purchase properties at much lower prices than the others because the government says they are the native race of this country. Bullshit! You could say that if all the others were not born and bred here. But they are! Aren't we all your countrymen just the same?
And the willful government still has the guts to grumble about us not being patriotic and loyal enough to the country. What fools would pledge loyalty to a country that does not recognize their value as a people?
I suspect the people governing our country had been abducted by aliens from a faraway planet and stuffed with bullshit in their pathetic brains.
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Friends...
I was looking through one of my friends' blog on Friendster the other day and checking out her photo album. Haven't seen her in a long time. So much had happened in her life and I wasn't there to witness or to share. Her pictures also told of many interesting stories she shared with another one of my long-time-no-see friends. I have lotsa friends like that, ya know. Lazy, after all.
I started to feel envious, and maybe a wee bit jealous as well. Jealousy - ugly emotion, hate that word. Anyways, I began to feel left out.
We used to be close, the three of us. We used to be roomates and neighbours in the hostel back in college. Those girls are real fun to have around. And yeah, we had the craziest times together. Hiding each other's clothes when the other was having a shower in the hostel's public washroom; disturbing and making noises when one was mugging for exams; singing beside the hostel bedroom window in the wee hours of the morning while cramming for major tests; being yelled at by other hostel mates for being to noisy during exam periods; laughing at people we scorn. You name it, we had done it all like loonies on the moon.
I could talk to them about anything. They never judged me. I don't remember a time that I was feeling sad or used when I was with them. Those were often what I felt from time to time when I'm with my other friends. We would babble away like we never missed a day in our lives without each other in it even though truth says otherwise. They were the best kind of friends I've come across in a long, long time. Probably there never will be others like them again in my life.
Therefore, I thought we would still be really close friends even if we don't meet that often. For a while, things stayed that way. They would still ask me out even if I don't do that and we still meet up, albeit in quite a long time. I don't blame them, they cared for me so they probably didn't wanna impose themselves on me because I was busy spending time with my boyfriend. He used to be away from me a lot - going back to hometown visiting his parents, studying in UK for three months, doing internship, blah blah blah...
Hence, every time he finds the time to be around, I tend to hang on to him like super glue. Thus, neglecting time with my friends, I guess. But these 2 friends of mine were very understanding, so I didn't think that was any problem at all.
However, gradually, I began to lose track of the topics they talked about. The places that they went together; new friends they made; bad habits one of them picked up; BGRs that were never meant to be; all those and more...further and further I drifted away from their world. I was optimistic,"As long as we are still friends, I'm happy," I thought.
That shouldn't be the case. How silly of me to take everything for granted. To take them for granted. I realize my inadequecy only now. Although they didn't say anything about it, I guess subconsciously they think I didn't care as much. But being the good old souls they are, they were still very endearing to me.
As I said, I was browsing through one of these wonderful girls' blog. It occurred to me I was the one constantly doing the taking and seldom the giving. All of a sudden, I felt ashamed despised myself for the things that I've done. They and I myself know I'm lazy to keep in touch with friends, but this time, I just might have gone overboard.
Feeling guilty, I wanted to make up for my past mistakes immediately. I know that takes time. But I couldn't wait. So I sms to each of them, saying we should probably go out together some time soon. One of them didn't reply, as with always. She seldom replies my sms, that woman. But I can assure you she's a good friend to have. And guess what, she has the very same surname as me! My surname is damn rare, ya know.
The other one called me and apologized for not having the time to see me for such a long time. Geez, I felt wretched, I was the one who should be sorry! She said she was busy with her finals and that she had finally graduated from these couple of hellish years in university. However, she'd just gone back to Kuching last Sunday. I was flabbergasted. I didn't even know that! And here she was in Kuching, probably for good. As much as I felt sorry, I felt hurt.
I guess the other girl would probably never reply my sms. Will this friendship of mine be gone with the wind?
Time will tell.
Serves me right for being so selfish and lazy.
Happy now, Old Man upstairs?
I started to feel envious, and maybe a wee bit jealous as well. Jealousy - ugly emotion, hate that word. Anyways, I began to feel left out.
We used to be close, the three of us. We used to be roomates and neighbours in the hostel back in college. Those girls are real fun to have around. And yeah, we had the craziest times together. Hiding each other's clothes when the other was having a shower in the hostel's public washroom; disturbing and making noises when one was mugging for exams; singing beside the hostel bedroom window in the wee hours of the morning while cramming for major tests; being yelled at by other hostel mates for being to noisy during exam periods; laughing at people we scorn. You name it, we had done it all like loonies on the moon.
I could talk to them about anything. They never judged me. I don't remember a time that I was feeling sad or used when I was with them. Those were often what I felt from time to time when I'm with my other friends. We would babble away like we never missed a day in our lives without each other in it even though truth says otherwise. They were the best kind of friends I've come across in a long, long time. Probably there never will be others like them again in my life.
Therefore, I thought we would still be really close friends even if we don't meet that often. For a while, things stayed that way. They would still ask me out even if I don't do that and we still meet up, albeit in quite a long time. I don't blame them, they cared for me so they probably didn't wanna impose themselves on me because I was busy spending time with my boyfriend. He used to be away from me a lot - going back to hometown visiting his parents, studying in UK for three months, doing internship, blah blah blah...
Hence, every time he finds the time to be around, I tend to hang on to him like super glue. Thus, neglecting time with my friends, I guess. But these 2 friends of mine were very understanding, so I didn't think that was any problem at all.
However, gradually, I began to lose track of the topics they talked about. The places that they went together; new friends they made; bad habits one of them picked up; BGRs that were never meant to be; all those and more...further and further I drifted away from their world. I was optimistic,"As long as we are still friends, I'm happy," I thought.
That shouldn't be the case. How silly of me to take everything for granted. To take them for granted. I realize my inadequecy only now. Although they didn't say anything about it, I guess subconsciously they think I didn't care as much. But being the good old souls they are, they were still very endearing to me.
As I said, I was browsing through one of these wonderful girls' blog. It occurred to me I was the one constantly doing the taking and seldom the giving. All of a sudden, I felt ashamed despised myself for the things that I've done. They and I myself know I'm lazy to keep in touch with friends, but this time, I just might have gone overboard.
Feeling guilty, I wanted to make up for my past mistakes immediately. I know that takes time. But I couldn't wait. So I sms to each of them, saying we should probably go out together some time soon. One of them didn't reply, as with always. She seldom replies my sms, that woman. But I can assure you she's a good friend to have. And guess what, she has the very same surname as me! My surname is damn rare, ya know.
The other one called me and apologized for not having the time to see me for such a long time. Geez, I felt wretched, I was the one who should be sorry! She said she was busy with her finals and that she had finally graduated from these couple of hellish years in university. However, she'd just gone back to Kuching last Sunday. I was flabbergasted. I didn't even know that! And here she was in Kuching, probably for good. As much as I felt sorry, I felt hurt.
I guess the other girl would probably never reply my sms. Will this friendship of mine be gone with the wind?
Time will tell.
Serves me right for being so selfish and lazy.
Happy now, Old Man upstairs?
Monday, May 01, 2006
Devious World...
Watched Malaysia Superstar Grand Finale on Saturday. The final result really makes me wonder...Are Malaysians today really that shallow?
The male champion is John an the female champion is Desiree. So during the finale, the two of them are gonna compete against each other for the grand throne of Malaysia Superstar.
And geez, any fool can see that the one who's the real thing, the one who could really carry a tune was Desiree. John's voice was weak, although it was considered good for a guy. But I don't think we should judge them on relative terms in this case. To me, John was just not up to standard.
He won simply because of his fans' votes. That was totally unfair since votes from the public carried 70% of the overall marks while the judges' decision only carried 30%! Anyone can see it was just a way for Magnum and other organizers to rake in millions from gullible Malaysians. Well, they have succeeded.
Wanna know why so many voted for John? Well, here's what I thought:
He was such a crybaby that he cried whenever there was a chance; whether he was happy or sad or someone got kicked out of the bogus competition. Basically, just any time. I think this makes the fans feel that they can really relate to him and that he is just a regular guy after all. It's good, actually, but I just wish he had more talent.
As we all know, girls are more easily involved in voting activities like these. Moreover, they might even think that John was a prince charming anyway. Therefore, he got more votes than Desiree.
Desiree, on the other hand, was cool and composed and was talented to boot. Poor girl, she was so badly misunderstood that most viewers mistook her for being cold and aloof. What the heck, at least she could really sing!
All in all, Desiree's talent will take her far while John would probably fade away to nothing, if you ask me. Cruel thing to say. But I guess John should know the reason that enabled him to gain access to the champion of this contest. Therefore, if he doesn't buckle up and improve, Desiree would overtake him in a flash (she already has).
The male champion is John an the female champion is Desiree. So during the finale, the two of them are gonna compete against each other for the grand throne of Malaysia Superstar.
And geez, any fool can see that the one who's the real thing, the one who could really carry a tune was Desiree. John's voice was weak, although it was considered good for a guy. But I don't think we should judge them on relative terms in this case. To me, John was just not up to standard.
He won simply because of his fans' votes. That was totally unfair since votes from the public carried 70% of the overall marks while the judges' decision only carried 30%! Anyone can see it was just a way for Magnum and other organizers to rake in millions from gullible Malaysians. Well, they have succeeded.
Wanna know why so many voted for John? Well, here's what I thought:
He was such a crybaby that he cried whenever there was a chance; whether he was happy or sad or someone got kicked out of the bogus competition. Basically, just any time. I think this makes the fans feel that they can really relate to him and that he is just a regular guy after all. It's good, actually, but I just wish he had more talent.
As we all know, girls are more easily involved in voting activities like these. Moreover, they might even think that John was a prince charming anyway. Therefore, he got more votes than Desiree.
Desiree, on the other hand, was cool and composed and was talented to boot. Poor girl, she was so badly misunderstood that most viewers mistook her for being cold and aloof. What the heck, at least she could really sing!
All in all, Desiree's talent will take her far while John would probably fade away to nothing, if you ask me. Cruel thing to say. But I guess John should know the reason that enabled him to gain access to the champion of this contest. Therefore, if he doesn't buckle up and improve, Desiree would overtake him in a flash (she already has).
Friday, April 28, 2006
Eh?
It's Friday night and yours truly is still slogging away at the office, with poops trying to squeeze themselves out my asshole but there isn't enough moisture, it seems. I get probs like that sometimes, what you call constipation. It's gotten a lot better, though.
Sigh...my own fault. Creative juices are drying. That's why I can't get a good design out to my boss. That's why I have to do this fucking job on a rainy Friday night.
Man, I just wanna dash home and spend some quality time with my guy. Monday's Labour Day, for God's sake! Well, which is why I wanna get everything over and done with tonight. Then I won't have to fret about it anymore.
Sunday's Mother's Day but I ain't gonna be home to visit Mom. Guess I'm the most unfilial daughter you'd ever see. Come here, take a picture then. No, honestly, like other people, I'm just beginning to notice how old my parents have become.
Thought of providing them a comfortable life in which they would not need to worry about money or other cruel facets of life, too. But I guess I'm such a lazy bum it will be a helluva long time for me to achieve that. Sometimes I really do wish I have more drive.
Wondering why I'm slogging away but still have the time to blog? Well, my machine is the slowest of its kind so I have to wait for the files to open up. Anyways, gotta get back to work.
Sigh...my own fault. Creative juices are drying. That's why I can't get a good design out to my boss. That's why I have to do this fucking job on a rainy Friday night.
Man, I just wanna dash home and spend some quality time with my guy. Monday's Labour Day, for God's sake! Well, which is why I wanna get everything over and done with tonight. Then I won't have to fret about it anymore.
Sunday's Mother's Day but I ain't gonna be home to visit Mom. Guess I'm the most unfilial daughter you'd ever see. Come here, take a picture then. No, honestly, like other people, I'm just beginning to notice how old my parents have become.
Thought of providing them a comfortable life in which they would not need to worry about money or other cruel facets of life, too. But I guess I'm such a lazy bum it will be a helluva long time for me to achieve that. Sometimes I really do wish I have more drive.
Wondering why I'm slogging away but still have the time to blog? Well, my machine is the slowest of its kind so I have to wait for the files to open up. Anyways, gotta get back to work.
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
Fly Girl?
I woke up with a slight headache today. I didn't sleep very late last night. So what the...? Mmm, probably because I was up doing something I shouldn't be doing. Haha, curious? Guess then!
Anyways, the slight disturbance this morning developed into heavy lethargy by the time I made it to the bus. I was in a damn uncomfortable position in my seat, thinking, "Man, I wish I'm sitting beside the window," glancing at the guy next to me.
I was still half awake when I saw it. It came in the form of an elongated round diamond (forgive me if my description sucks, I forgot the name of the shape), contained by black fabric. By now, the girl was standing in front of me and smiling at me apologetically as she accidentally pushed my leg.
I looked away, not knowing what to do or say. How was I gonna say it anyway? I've never been in this situation before, at least not with a girl. I thought of continuing with my doze, but I hesitated for 2 minutes more before I could stand it no more.
I tapped on her wrist, she she brought her head down closer to hear, but not quite close enough. Shit, I can't speak that loud, but it was noisy because the bus was packed.
"Hmm, miss, your fly is undone..." I muttered under my breath. I wasn't even sure what expression I should show on my face!
She lowered her head in a flash and looked at me with a look of sheer disbelief. Then she pulled her coat together to cover the wide opening, flashing the top of her white panties and some of her tummy.
I guess she couldn't bear to zip it straight away because the motion would be too obvious and everyone would now. Although, I thought that perhaps the guy beside me already noticed, he looked away out the window once the girl came up. I mean, it was soooo obvious. Her lower body was smack at eye level for those of us sitting down.
I felt sorry for her, I really did. Afterwards, she simply couldn't look me in the eye (not even as a whole, I guess). She kept her eyes straight in front and wouldn't even take the seat beside me when it was vacated. Well, she was standing closest to me so normally would have taken it, right?
First time I'm in this situation. I really couldn't stand that a girl is flashing herself unknowingly and suddenly realize it only in the afternoon. How many people would she had flashed by then? It's humiliating. But luckily I'm a girl, or else I would be like the guy next to me on the bus. I mean, for a girl, if a guy came up to her and say that she didn't zip her fly, she probably would think he's a psycho, right? Although she might feel a teeny weeny bit grateful.
However, I would really appreciate someone telling it to me rather than realizing it only afterwards, if it's really apparent. I would be doubly embarassed if a guy tells me but as long as he doesn't look weird, it should be ok.
There, I sure hope it doesn't happen to me, though.
Anyways, the slight disturbance this morning developed into heavy lethargy by the time I made it to the bus. I was in a damn uncomfortable position in my seat, thinking, "Man, I wish I'm sitting beside the window," glancing at the guy next to me.
I was still half awake when I saw it. It came in the form of an elongated round diamond (forgive me if my description sucks, I forgot the name of the shape), contained by black fabric. By now, the girl was standing in front of me and smiling at me apologetically as she accidentally pushed my leg.
I looked away, not knowing what to do or say. How was I gonna say it anyway? I've never been in this situation before, at least not with a girl. I thought of continuing with my doze, but I hesitated for 2 minutes more before I could stand it no more.
I tapped on her wrist, she she brought her head down closer to hear, but not quite close enough. Shit, I can't speak that loud, but it was noisy because the bus was packed.
"Hmm, miss, your fly is undone..." I muttered under my breath. I wasn't even sure what expression I should show on my face!
She lowered her head in a flash and looked at me with a look of sheer disbelief. Then she pulled her coat together to cover the wide opening, flashing the top of her white panties and some of her tummy.
I guess she couldn't bear to zip it straight away because the motion would be too obvious and everyone would now. Although, I thought that perhaps the guy beside me already noticed, he looked away out the window once the girl came up. I mean, it was soooo obvious. Her lower body was smack at eye level for those of us sitting down.
I felt sorry for her, I really did. Afterwards, she simply couldn't look me in the eye (not even as a whole, I guess). She kept her eyes straight in front and wouldn't even take the seat beside me when it was vacated. Well, she was standing closest to me so normally would have taken it, right?
First time I'm in this situation. I really couldn't stand that a girl is flashing herself unknowingly and suddenly realize it only in the afternoon. How many people would she had flashed by then? It's humiliating. But luckily I'm a girl, or else I would be like the guy next to me on the bus. I mean, for a girl, if a guy came up to her and say that she didn't zip her fly, she probably would think he's a psycho, right? Although she might feel a teeny weeny bit grateful.
However, I would really appreciate someone telling it to me rather than realizing it only afterwards, if it's really apparent. I would be doubly embarassed if a guy tells me but as long as he doesn't look weird, it should be ok.
There, I sure hope it doesn't happen to me, though.
Sunday, February 20, 2005
自怜的我
前天晚上我哭了。这几天实在是太忙碌了，老板把一大堆的工作抛来，而顾客也不停的在施压，我实在是受不了也忍无可忍了！So I cracked.Damn.
真的是好久都没这样哭了，很过瘾。我一下班回家（晚上十点半左右）眼泪就西里哗啦的流了出来，我也任性的打了电话给信贤哭诉，我很坏吧！I think I really messed up his mind. 因为我竟然说很想死，这当然令他很担心，想马上就从砂劳越飞回来，超感动的说！哈哈！
他能早点回来的话我当然很高兴啦，不过我也明白他需要 spend more time with his parents. 所以我就说不要了，我也不想他的父母真的觉得我在跟他们抢，嘻嘻。感谢主，这次信贤回砂劳越，我也处理得较上次好了，而且 according to him, 好很多耶！我当真是跨前一大步喽！这样的话就不会每次都搞得他左右为难啦，爱你哟，老公！
Anyways, 哭了之后舒服了许多，问题是，我竞不能停止了！就那样坐在阳台边，一直哭·一直哭，我甚至以为我快要疯了！竟然工作成这个样子，实在是不值得呐！还好我早已决定四月就交辞职信了，那时就能脱离苦海啦，哈哈！如果说忙成这样但还能够从中得到满足感，那倒不错，但坏就坏在，我一点这种感觉都没有！我根本就不喜欢我现在的工作，其实说穿了，我也不知道我到底想要些什么啦。
当我在哭泣的同时，我突然听见了许多轰隆隆的声响，我赶紧跑到阳台栏杆旁，许多七彩斑斓的花朵在吉隆坡的天空绽放着，实在是美极了！这时我才想起，那正是华人拜天宫的日子，原来吉隆坡的神庙是那么注重那一天的啊。不过我和我家人是从来都不拜天宫的啦，也不知是否因为籍贯的关系，话说回来，我们连七月半也不拜了。
那样的情况（烟火）持续了两个小时左右，我真的没见过这么多的烟火在那么多不一样的地方同时涌上天空，可算是奇观啦，连 New Year 或 Xmas Countdown 都没那么厉害哩！真的！相信我！
而我呢，就呆呆的站在那里，凝望着那在黑夜里绽放的一朵朵火花，特别是最靠近我的那些，每一个涌上夜空的烟火，我都喃喃的说了 “我爱信贤”，嘻嘻！感动吧，老公！这样的话，我就觉得我们能够长长久久，听起来是很傻啦，但做了就觉得很开心，我也看到了好几盏孔明灯，我对它们说了同样的话，哈！
忘了说了，有些烟花坠落的时候像极了天上掉下来的流星，虽然我是没看过真的流星啦，但我还是对这些 “假流星” 许了愿，嘿嘿，当然是有关我和信贤的啦！流星是假，心、情意是真就行了嘛！
真的是好久都没这样哭了，很过瘾。我一下班回家（晚上十点半左右）眼泪就西里哗啦的流了出来，我也任性的打了电话给信贤哭诉，我很坏吧！I think I really messed up his mind. 因为我竟然说很想死，这当然令他很担心，想马上就从砂劳越飞回来，超感动的说！哈哈！
他能早点回来的话我当然很高兴啦，不过我也明白他需要 spend more time with his parents. 所以我就说不要了，我也不想他的父母真的觉得我在跟他们抢，嘻嘻。感谢主，这次信贤回砂劳越，我也处理得较上次好了，而且 according to him, 好很多耶！我当真是跨前一大步喽！这样的话就不会每次都搞得他左右为难啦，爱你哟，老公！
Anyways, 哭了之后舒服了许多，问题是，我竞不能停止了！就那样坐在阳台边，一直哭·一直哭，我甚至以为我快要疯了！竟然工作成这个样子，实在是不值得呐！还好我早已决定四月就交辞职信了，那时就能脱离苦海啦，哈哈！如果说忙成这样但还能够从中得到满足感，那倒不错，但坏就坏在，我一点这种感觉都没有！我根本就不喜欢我现在的工作，其实说穿了，我也不知道我到底想要些什么啦。
当我在哭泣的同时，我突然听见了许多轰隆隆的声响，我赶紧跑到阳台栏杆旁，许多七彩斑斓的花朵在吉隆坡的天空绽放着，实在是美极了！这时我才想起，那正是华人拜天宫的日子，原来吉隆坡的神庙是那么注重那一天的啊。不过我和我家人是从来都不拜天宫的啦，也不知是否因为籍贯的关系，话说回来，我们连七月半也不拜了。
那样的情况（烟火）持续了两个小时左右，我真的没见过这么多的烟火在那么多不一样的地方同时涌上天空，可算是奇观啦，连 New Year 或 Xmas Countdown 都没那么厉害哩！真的！相信我！
而我呢，就呆呆的站在那里，凝望着那在黑夜里绽放的一朵朵火花，特别是最靠近我的那些，每一个涌上夜空的烟火，我都喃喃的说了 “我爱信贤”，嘻嘻！感动吧，老公！这样的话，我就觉得我们能够长长久久，听起来是很傻啦，但做了就觉得很开心，我也看到了好几盏孔明灯，我对它们说了同样的话，哈！
忘了说了，有些烟花坠落的时候像极了天上掉下来的流星，虽然我是没看过真的流星啦，但我还是对这些 “假流星” 许了愿，嘿嘿，当然是有关我和信贤的啦！流星是假，心、情意是真就行了嘛！
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